Its Official

Well, its a week late, but I'm offical, I am offically going to Hunstville, AL to work as a travel agency nurse in a small hospital in Madison county. I start Tuesday night, I move into my apartment on Monday as soon as I get all the specs and things. WOW, what new adventures lay ahead for me. Some rather amazing things have taken place in my life since I decided to do this traveling thing, I'm so excited about these new adventures, I don't want to miss out on any part of any of them. Well, I had a revelation the last couple of days, and I've come to realise the importance of living for the moment, in that very day. I know the Word instructs us to not worry about tomorrow, for it has worries of its own, but how many of us really do that. I thought I was living for the moment, living each day...and you know what, that is the furthest thing from the truth that there is. I have no other way of explaining this except for that it seems now as I am looking back-hindsight always being 20/20- that I have been living each day according to its consequence for my future, meaning each day somehow related to where I thought I was supposed to be or where I was supposed to be going, and so instead of enjoying a day simply as a new day from My Saviour, it was another day that brought me closer to the end, closer to my future...or so I thought, becaused in all acutallity, I haven't been living at all, I've simply been exsisting, simply floating through daily routines not expecting or experiencing anything new. It wasn't until last night talking to a dear friend of mine that she said something that triggered this all in my mind....I have been in a desert place unlike any I have ever been in before....its like I simply just dissappeared from exsistance...I haven't been social or even really friendly for a very long time...and she said something to me that made me realise I had become a hermit, and it hit me all at once....I have, I have taken myself away from everything so as to not have to face the truth of what has been going on in the inside of me...the changes that God is trying to cause to be, the new me that HE is causing to awaken and arise within me....I'm not sure what all is going to happen, I'm not sure who I may be in the end, but I do know that with My Saviour in charge I have nothing to worry about. He will cause it to all unfold, and I am going to do my best to continue to daily live every day to its fullest....I don't want to ever just exsist again...I love living, I love life, I love My Jesus and I am so glad HE is ever patient and ever faithful. This last week and a half has been I think the best of my life so far, and yes something really awesome happened, but more importantly....I found me. I found the one who resides within the walls of this skin, I found the real me, the one I knew was missing, but had no idea where to find, the me that I have been hiding, the me I have been scared to be....simply just the woman of God has created, and knowing that, know that HE, the God of the universe, created me, and placed me here on this planet and this time, astounds me, and I so glad that now I can freely live, wholly and completely HIS, experiencing all that HE has instore for me....I am so ready for this newness....I am so excited that even that word seems pathetic to describe what I am feeling. So thank you my dear friend, and thank you Jesus, because without you, none of this would have ever happened. You are awesome, and I love you with all of my heart.